You took your coat off


and stood in the rain



You're always crazy like that


And I watched from my window


Always felt I was outside


looking in on you

You're always the mysterious one with

Dark eyes and careless hair


You were fashionably sensitive


But too cool to care



You stood in my doorway


with nothing to say


Besides some comment on the weather




Well in case you failed to notice


In case you failed to see


This is my heart bleeding before you

This is me down on my knees, and...






These foolish games are tearing me apart





And your thoughtless words are





breaking my heart





You're breaking my heart.








You're always brilliant in the morning



Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee



Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you



You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones





As I clumsily strummed my guitar



Well, excuse me



guess I've mistaken you for somebody else


Somebody who gave a damn




Somebody more like myself



These foolish games are tearing me apart













And your thoughtless words are





breaking my heart









You're breaking my heart.














You took your coat off


and stood in the rain




You're always crazy like that

[ .S o n g t i t l e. ]

Foolish Games
by Jewel

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

*smiles*

love e ktv sessions i had with Attica guys for e past 2 Sundays. Brandon, joan, hanz, fion, kelvin n his funny gf belle... blah...

e first 1 was e crazy 1. all ktv-ed at cine till 6 in e morn. wow! cant imagined we actually managed to do tt! den later left for breakfast at Mr Bean.

last sun was at a ktv pub. din quite like e place coz their Q for e songs go in alphabetical order. so no matter how long u have selected ur song, u might not even get to sing it at e end of e day. chose fang hao wen's Xing Fu but din have e chance to sing it. >:( wanted to try her songs for a long time liao coz kbox doesnt seem to have them, but now... hai.. nvm.. at least there's a pool table for entertainment.

so again Mr Bean was next. afterwhich me, fion n Brandon went Boat Quay coz me n fion dun wanna go back so early. its like this is e last sun for us to hang ard so late b4 our work n sch starts. tts like 2 wks later... hanz n joan joined us awhile b4 heading home.

its kinda nice 4 Brandon to company us becoz of tt which made both of us feel guilty e next day coz he fell sick with a fever. and also.. sometimes i juz dunno how should i treat him. makes me mad n irritated sometimes.... but still, when he gets serious, its quite 'mi ren'. like ya like i always say... 'ren zhen de ren jui mei'. n tt nite he showed tt side of him. he may always seem crappy n stuff, but seriously, every1 of us, even hanz dunno wat is he really thinking inside, though he kept implying that his family v 'wan mei'. he's always trying to keep every1 in high spirits.

hopefully he would open up some day... share with me or whoever he's comfortable with

6:20 PM
- I need some1, some thing to call my own, coz tts wat brings meaning to my life -

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sweet!

haha... received my first rose from some1 last sun. it was from brandon. a few days ago he was playing ard with e 2 red rose for attica's entrance den he passed it to me. knowing it was for attica, i gave it back to him n he jokingly said he would go get 1 for me e next day. like... alrite... i wait ah... but din know he would actually go get it.

but y? hmm... anyway, thanks 4 doing a gd deed. tot i wouldnt receive any flowers in my entire life n have to buy myself a bouquet on my bday to cheer myself up. but this 1 time is gd enuff.

though it was a yellow stalk, n dunno whether he gave any to e other girls too, it felt really sweet then. he passed it to me while we were in e office doing closing... so sweet. was like where did he get it from sia.. with a few others ard, he not pai seh i also paiseh ah..



n hooray! im getting a laptop soon. ahh!!! im so bored at home. i cant play any vcd coz e player is spoilt. argh... watch tv is all i do. i heard from e news tt it makes ppl dumb n pulls them away from e society if u do tt for a long time. *glup* is it already happening to me? have i mentioned im staying alone at my aunt's place? they both have juz moved to their renovated house at e other part of simei. im waiting for my house to b renovated too. but tt'll have to b next yr or even later. both my sis n i r bugging my dad. ya.. otherwise i wun move move back, u hear me dad?!


*lonely...im so lonely....* i have somehow lost e sense of belonging...


i know wat i want in e future so as not to make my life seem meaningless, but i dunno how to achieve it. all i can do is wait 1 day after another. with my high expectations for others n thinking about those tt r best for me, its difficult n almost impossible to get wat i have in mind.

4:41 PM
- I need some1, some thing to call my own, coz tts wat brings meaning to my life -

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